my baby mac's harddrive died on me. it's been more than a week already! huhuhu! argh... hate this... everybody knows i'm an IT guy... what really sucks is an IT guy with no computer... well at least at home.
i miss my baby mac... but no fret, soon she'll be better... way better than before. just needed some cold cash for that.
It's been a very very stressful moment these couple of days. i've felt that i've been beaten down, emotionally tortured. somewhat questioning why am i doing here.
it's not everyday that one of your worst nightmares comes true. i'm already there. i had the chance to get out, to walk away... but i choose to confront it. i'm already at that point so might as well get over with it. i know it won't be easy. it will be stressful. both physically and emotionally.
i just hope that this will make me stronger. they say that the moment of glory comes in the darkest hours. getting up will be difficult 'coz there's awfully alot of weight on my shoulders and i'll be needing all the help and prayers that i could get.
i will get through.
yeah... i really do am... literally
haven't quite enjoyed my long weekend due to a cough and headache i've been nursing for two days. friends do invite me for a wall e screening but can't quite remember if i replied or not. haven't really had a real good night's rest because of the headache and the bombardment of irrelevant information my brain is forced to thinked about, even if i didn't want to think about it. awww... it really suck getting sick on a long weekend such as this.
well... i am getting better now. i still have the cough but now on the process of expelling the gooey, sticky phlegm. i still have the headaches, but maybe it's because of the long hours spending lying on my bed. i still can't enjoy the food, even if it's a food-filled festivity here at our home this weekend. and well, tomorrow will yet be another day.
well, at least there will be another long weekend coming up next weekend. i do hope that it'll be a better one.
i somehow believe that there are moments that are worth waiting for... that everything would fall into place to make it perfect. moments that keep us holding on up to the last minute...
of looking through someone's soul, ever so fragile
of saying the right words to heal the pain... and the words that completely turn our lives upside down
waiting up to that last moment until you are sure that everything was thought through and through... the mind, and the heart has weighted its consequences and rewards.
and we should watch out of these moments, to never let it pass us by. keep on focused on the goal but never leave your senses off the world you live in.
for moments, once gone, will never return.
i've always thought that i've been looking back and forth, making sure that i'm in the right place, ready for action when the time comes. somehow, i feared that i'm missing out the best tings in life for just a single moment... and at this time, i am back...
waiting at the coffeeshop... (link)
wondering how things would end up if things went my way... or in the other way. i've let my life be secluded in that tiny space in the universe where so much around me have happened. inifinite moments went by as i remember the single rose that stood witness of my being. how i long for the moment to come...
and 5 months after...
the moment i envisioned didn't come. the world did not slowed down for me. the background did not fade to black as i stood looking through her eyes. there were no speaking of love without talking. there were no flashes fireworks, nor the sound of the sea splashing through, nor the wind caressing as it blows her hair across her face.
i did not have that moment that i've imagined... i had something else.
and it was perfect.
the rose was long gone. withered and non-existent. if it were to listen to me, and should i be allowed to speak to it, i wouldn't have said much...
"i have grown alot these past 5 months. witness a new chapter in my life"
and how i pray that other roses would bloom for us.
i've been meaning to post for quite sometime already but it's either i didn't had the time to write or didn't have the content to write. ah i just missed my saturday night weekend posting. it just keeps me connected to the world... well, not exactly. though it does give my snooping friends something to chismax with through the week.
well, my last post was the guitar hero. wasn't that exciting but my (geek) friends dig it. my ds almost never reverted back to the edge cartridge to play other games. oh well... it's a good finger exercise!
hmm.. what else? the month of july was just... so so for me. it was supposedly my month but things didn't worked out as i expected. but it's ok. things turned out just fine. the month was culminated with the SFC MMC. at least i have now something to hold on to.
how am i doing so far? well, i've been getting touch with some old friends, high school, college, some YFC's that were our babies when we're still there. oh my how they've grown now. and yup we too feel old already.
too old. i just had my birthday a month ago. im now on my mid-life crisis! haha! with my diet and lifestyle, my life expectancy will only be 50. so i need to get those cross trainers out of my closet and cut down on my coke and pizza intake. gah maybe after the big party this august (my family's birthday: tin, mom and dad and their anniversary). time to work out and maybe this time i have more reasons to keep up.
what else? hmmm... to be continued... hehehe. my next thoughts deserve its own posting
i don't know you anymore at at all...
sayang...
its a shame that it went this way... but that's the way it has to be
worlds apart
strangers
when the only things to talk about are nonchalant memories
but i'm still praying that someday, somehow our paths cross again
it's just too bad that you were never there to see me grow here, to see how fate made the best out of the worst situations
and i weren't there to see you happy as well
Got this from pia's post. since nandun pangalan ko sige na nga sagutan ko na rin :D
***8 years ago ***
1) How old were you?
>> 17
2) Where did you go to school?
>> pisay
3) Where did you work?
>> working on our research project and
4) Where did you live?
>> Far far away fairview
5) Where did you usually hang out?
>> school, back lobby, ASTB lab
6) Did you wear contacts?
>> nope
7) Closest friend(s)?
>> Jakorra pa rin! hahaha panget pakinggan pero its a good group
8) How many tattoos did you have?
>> nil
9) How many piercings did you have?
>> nil
10) Did you drive a car?
>> my mom's car
11) Had you been to a real party?
>> birthday party?
12) Had you had your heart broken?
>> yah. wasn't the best feeling but i'd rather choose to remember only the good stuff
13) Were you single / Taken / Married?
>> tekken?
14) Any Kids?
>> nil
***4 years ago ***
1) How old were you?
>> 21
2) Where did you go to school?
>> UP naming mahal
3) Where did you work?
>> Wala pa. a year after pa ako nagka-work
4) Where did you live?
>> far far away
5) Where did you hang out?
>> UP, yfc tambayan
6) Did you wear glasses?
>> oh yes
7) Closest friend(s)?
>> YFC peeps and most of the co-execom
8) How many tattoos did you have?
>> nil
9) How many piercings did you have?
>> nil
10) What car did you drive?
>> kotkot! red 93 lancer
11) Had your heart broken?
>> yes, and much much more at my own expense
12) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
>> single pero someone came in later that year to heal me
13) Any Kids?
>> mga alaga sa YFC
***Today/2008***
1) How old are you?
>> 28
2) Where do you work?
>> Anino Games
3) Where do you live?
>> Far far away pa rin pero hoping soon will move out, but not this year
4) Do you wear glasses?
>> malabo na talaga ang aking mata 20 years ago na
5) Where do you hang out?
>> office? sa UP pa rin.
6) Closest friend(s)?
>> SFC friends, YFC friends na SFC na yung iba, some officemates tsaka isa pa. andyan pa rin naman ang HS 'kada
7) Do you talk to your old friends?
>> some of which are really worth keeping
8) How many piercings do you have?
>> nil... nde na ako magpapa-pierce
9) How many tattoos?
>> wala rin.
10) What kind of car do you have?
>> ferrari... red suzuki alto hahaha. mahal na kasi gas.
11) Has your heart been broken?
>> this year will be a a happy year for me, sana
12) Single/taken/married/divorced?
>> Single oh yeah...
13) Any Children?
>> 0
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