freedom day: incoherent thoughts

the day ended well today... a bit far from what i've imagined.

it was exceptionally ok. not great, not dull, actually quite simple. but i don't know why i find this day exceptional.

started the day with a commute to makati, hot chocolate before going to work, had a component breakdown on my workstation, headache that made me slept through my afternoon break, commute homeward bound. dinner with my household (sfc), then went home. it was ordinary. but i felt that there's something today that's out of context.

commuters around me were irate. not only on the bus, but up to the point on the last corner turn before walking towards our house. but i held my cool, smiled.

i'm not like them.

i am happy today.

today i remembered... though i know i couldn't force myself into someone else's life, i'd be contented to watch from afar. too far, maybe, that i've forgotten how it felt to be near again. i've looked back to where we parted ways and indeed, it's a long way back.

and now i realize that it's a new world already. things around me are different, far from what i had. it's the world i've always wanted to be in. i know you got what you have always wanted as well.

and i am also happy for you. though we may have grown apart, i always remember the things that make us both smile.

happy birthday to you. i'm always praying for the best... for your happiness.

don't worry about me. i'll just blend in the background. you wouldn't even notice me that i'm there. as i've said, i'm happy today.

you should be as well...